Greetings!
My alias is the Weaver, and I’m a literature enthusiast, aspiring writer, and interested in Leftist politics.
About Me
I’m just a curious guy navigating my 20s and am based in the Mediterranean basin. I’ve struggled pretty heavily with trying to make meaning out of my own life, and I’ve found that the most therapeutic thing has been to think about my doings as creative acts. I’ve come to believe that humans want nothing more than to add to the world, and my own writing functions as both deconstruction and construction.
I tend to be a bit of a doomer, and have found non-dualism helpful in combating my own pessimism.
I read extensively, and there are a few genres that I love more than any others:
- Speculative Fiction, especially Science Fiction and the Weird
- Arabic Literature
- Surrealism
- Philosophy and Critical Theory
- Political Economy
- Sciences, especially relating to Cognitive Science and the Environment
- Nondualism and Mysticism
Why d-integration?
I began this site as a personal blog to get back into serious writing after leaving academia in 2024. It was an opportunity to write about my own mental health, transformations in global politics, and my own thoughts on culture and society. The term “d-integration” is, in some ways, meant to mirror Mark Fisher’s k-punk, while reflecting my own experiences of political and mental disintegration.
On some level, this blog was constructed to allow me to write my way out of fears and anxieties about the future. It allows me to find meaning in cultural forms, social relations, and the everyday.
Why the Weaver?
My alias was inspired by a major character in China Miéville’s Perdido Street Station.
Without spoiling too much, the Weaver is an eldritch spider who exists outside of reality and maintains a vast web. The web is constructed when events happen in the world; unusual events bring about novel appearances in the web, and the Weaver acts in a way to make it aesthetically pleasing. The Weaver’s way of being is wholly alien to the inhabitants of Bas-Las, Miéville’s fictional universe, and is concerned only with the aesthetics of the web.
I read Miéville’s book at a time when I was finding the larger world increasingly incomprehensible. As silly as it may seem, I tried to look beyond myself and see my life from the Weaver’s perspective. It allowed me to rest easy, knowing that there was no one way of doing things.
Why the Fediverse?
Over the past years, I increasingly disconnected myself from the larger internet. This was unusual for me, as I had been active since I was a child. The Dark Forest Theory of the Internet helped me make sense of why I felt so uncomfortable online, and I wanted to find a way to carve out my own space.
The last straw dropped in January-February 2025, when a group of plutocratic tech moguls received front-row seats at Donald Trump’s presidential inauguration, and Elon Musk captured large swaths of the federal government. I read Yanis Varoufakis’s Technofeudalism: What Killed Capitalism during the first weeks of the presidency, and it allowed me to see fundamental shifts in global political economy through new eyes. I knew, then, that I couldn’t ethically continue using multi-billionaire, centralized online spaces as I once did.
I had first heard about the Fediverse in 2022, when Twitter was purchased by Musk, but didn’t give it much attention. As shifts in American politics occurred, I read extensively about the Fediverse online, and it reminded me of an idealization of what the internet could have been had venture capitalists not invested heavily in companies like Facebook (now Meta), Apple, Google, and more.
I opted to connect this blog to the Fediverse as a form of protest; I registered for Mastodon‘s zirk.us instance because of my own interest in literature, and the arts more broadly. I also shifted my reading from Goodreads to BookWyrm‘s bookwyrm.social instance.
Being integrated with the Fediverse that all engagement– responses, reactions, or boosts–with the posts made here will appear directly on-site. The only way to make comments and react is through the Fediverse. You can follow me via the blog handle below.
Fediverse Accounts
Mastodon: @weaver@zirk.us
BookWyrm: @d-integration@bookwyrm.social
Blog: @weaver@d-integration.org (link leads to this blog)
